a teacher means a lifetime commitment

Ellen Says: My whole consciousness has always been made myself aware that once a teacher will always be a teacher no matter what. And this awareness is always creeping in my whole mind despite the fact that I was away from school for, like, many years now, yet there is always that feeling within me of being such a mentor forever.

When I left the portals of an exclusive school for very elite children in Manila, I was saddened with a fact that I will surely miss the classroom teaching. Teaching such very energetic and active boys in the elementary with art consciousness and the ABC's of health and sciences was indeed such a great delight and fulfillment for me.

But when I gave birth to my son Ral, I had to give him my utmost and top priority. I had to be his security blanket. I had to be his teacher in his early years of childhood development. I had to be always with him and beside him 24/7.

Now that he has moved on as he is already in the first grade, I have this sudden surge of getting myself energized again with my longings to be back in the classroom and once again be a part of a learning institution simply because I just terribly miss the classroom ambiance and its atmosphere.

Such feeling of weariness made me decide to eventually try to go back to the classroom. And I did. And I felt so accomplished because something very good and enriching experience happened to me yesterday when I went to the International School for Children nearby my place of residence.

It was indeed a very grateful experience to have met teacher Titing, teacher Pat and teacher Sarah. I absolutely felt such a joyous feeling to be able to get to know them and had a great talk with them.

Also, I was so overjoyed in my conversation with them and I suddenly realized that I was getting a little bit overwhelmed with our talk but I knew that they were aware that I was a little bit anxious as I just really wanted to really be back in the classroom considering the fact that I was away from it for so many years now. However, during the later part of our conversation, with their amiable and welcoming dispositions and their great smiles, I was able to finally gain back my momentum.

I wanted to really be part of my usual niche of routines in the rudiments of the teaching ministry again. Well, the initial experience I had yesterday was such a very fulfilling and it was absolutely rewarding for me after many years of being away from the classroom. The talk with teacher Titing, teacher Pat and teacher Sarah was only the starting point and it was indeed very substantial. I felt great.

The next thing that I am hoping now is to be able to eventually become part of their learning institution so that I may be able share with these kids my teaching competencies once again after so many years of being away from the classroom.

A teacher is indeed a lifetime commitment and once you become part of the ministry but somewhere and somehow you leave its portals due to some sensible restraints, something in you does not die nor wither but remains and sticks in you for as long as you live, and I am sure that these days-in-and-days-out in your life without the classroom ambiance, life's gonna haunt you like a ghost until such time when you could not anymore bear its haunting and one day you will just wake up with a final decision to, once and for all, come back and take responsibility of such life commitment: the teaching ministry.

this sounds so very funny! but very heartwarming indeed!

Lawrence says: let me show you how my community brothers think about me and my long stay over in the world which is not really my own..Read on.....


Kapatid,


pax!

got your message just now. Desert Day ngayon dito kaya after mass, naka-log-in agad ako at nakita ko ang message mo. Grabe na pala talaga ang sitwasyon mo diyan at ang kalagayan ni Inay. Buti naman at na-email mo ang tatay about your plans. Kasi the more na hindi malinaw sa kanya kung ano ang pasiya mo, the more na hindi niya maiintindihan ang buong kuwento at pangyayari na nagaganap sa buong pamilya mo diyan.

About your monthly charity for Inay, are you sure at na-check mo na ba ang passbook mo at talaga bang wala pa diyan ang padala ng community? Kasi dapat by this time ay andiyan na dahil buong linggo na ng first week of May at wala namang holiday ang bank this week.

Kung naantala ka mag padala ng mga receipts na hinihingi ng Tatay, probably, yun ang naka-delay sa pag send niya ng charity sa inyo. Alam mo naman ang Tatay, pag nag decide na ganito or ganyan, papanindigan na niya yan. Kaya pag nag sabi ng send receipts, wag ka mag padahan-dahan....whatever you have in your possession, send mo agad para di ito maging cause ng delay.

Kelan ka ba nag send ng mga receipts na hinihingi niya? ang gagawin kasi niyan ay bubusisiin pa niya isa-isa ang mga nakasulat dun sa resibo...don't be offended by what he's doing dahil di ka nag-iisa sa ganyang kalakaran...ultimo si Paco na Prior of the house ay ni-kumpronta ng Christian dahil sa pag gamit din niya ng credit card at di ito nagustuhan ng Abbot at and Sub-prior na si Christian...eh kasi nga naman, kanda-kuba na ang Xtian sa kaka-beg here and there every weekend, fundraising here in this parish at next week naman ay dun naman sa kabilang parish, tapos parang ang nangyayari, puro labas at gastos naman ng pera kaya wala siyang nakikita sa mga pinaghirapan niyang fundraising....ako nga nag-aalburuto din sa choir pag iniiwan nila ako mag-isa...i mean, pag si tatay wala dito at ang Xtian ay may fundaraising ng weekend, eh aalis yan ng Friday at babalik ng Monday...eh ang Paco naman nasa Mexico kaya sa akin napupunta ang pag patakbo ng buong monasteryo, jusko, tumataas ang dugo ko lalo na pag linggo dahil sa choir at sa mga kanta sa Misa.

Buti itong nakaraang linggo, lahat sila andito kasi dapat ay darating ang mga visitors (friendly visit) for a week pero di natuloy dahil sa volcanic erruption sa Iceland, di maka-travel ang Albert from Germany who is the co-visitor ni Anselm from Massachussettes. Eh, ang Paco came home just for that, kaya natipon ang tatlong matataas na opsiyal ng bahay for a week....kaya medyo masaya ako dahil hindi sa akin napunta ang pag-mama-ne-obra ng buong monasteryo.

Pero last Saturday, umalis na din ang Paco balik ng Mexico dahil kay Thomas Mitchell - na-atake at na stroke ito, and now ay may alzheimer desease na din. Inaantay na lang na matigok ito dahil yun ang obserbasyon ng mga doktor dun. Nahihirapan din ang Paco dahil kailangan din niyang mag-begging and fundraising ng pera dun dahil ang Thomas Mitchell ay nakatira sa moansteryo ng mga mongha at walang space for him so there's a need to build a space for Fr. Thomas, so sabi ng Tatay, "sige maghanap ka ng pera para mapagawaan ng kuwarto ang Fr. Thomas".

At heto ka pa, ang Leander who is in La Soledad ay naka-schedule din for an eye surgery at babalik siya dito sa third week of this month. Ang Bruno naman ay naka-schedule din for eye surgery on the 15th of this month dahil bulag na completely ang mata niya sa kaliwa kasi di ba puro puti lang and laman nun at wala talagang eyeball sa loob, eh ang sa kanan naman niya eh nakakakita kahit paano, pero lagi siyang hirap at minu-muta na nga and for him to see kahit papaano ay gumagamit pa nga ng 350na reading glass at dagdag pa ang hawak niyang handy lens just to read a word.

Ang siste pala nung in-examine siya, it was found out na kaya ganun dahil di nag da-dry ang retina niya sa loob or at the back of his eye...lagi yun may fluid at yun ang nag ko-cause ng di siya nakakakita nang maayos. Ayaw nga niya pa-opera dahil sobra na daw ang hirap niyang dinanas in the past na puro na lang operasyon, daanin na lang daw sa pag lagay ng patak na sobrang mahal naman, eh ang pang lagay ng patak, pang pa-dry lang naman yun sa watery eye niya dun sa retina - in other words, mabubulag tatalaga siyang tuluyan. Kaya ang desisyon ng abbot at council is to have him undergo an eye operation para dun sa retina and it will cause yata close to 10,000 dollars puwera pa ang gamot....ewan ko, kaya ang Xtian ay lagi na lang naka-yuko dahil puro gastos nga.

About sa sinasabi mong letter mo kay abbot, I don't know kung kelan ang desisyon niya....wala siya dito at nagpunta kahapon ng umaga sa Thien Tam (TExas), for the ordination of Paul (vietnamese) for Diaconate, at ang balik ng Tatay ay sa Martes (May 11th) pa ng gabi.

Kahit wala ang Tatay, medyo kalmante ako dahil andito ang Xtian at di ako totally nag-iisa sa pag patakbo ng monasteryo....Ngarag lang talaga ako pag ako naiiwan mag-isa to do administrative tasks, kasi nga di ba araw-araw na ang klase ko sa postulants, novice and juniors?...at pag may mga di pa nagkakasundo...di ko na alam kung ano ang uunahin ko.


There was a time na ako ang in-charge at wala ang tatlong opisyales. Ang Rodrigo went to town for recycle...ang siste sarado ang recycle place dahil yata sa dami pang nakatambak na di pa na-process and Digoy was told to return after the following week but must call first to make sure na bukas nga sila. Ang ginawa ng Digoy, naghanap ng ibang lugar na matatapunan ng mga karay-karay niyang basura at napadpad siya sa El Rito, eh sarado din daw yun on that day, kaya walang choice ang Digoy kundi umuwi nang bitbit pa din ang mga basura sa loob ng sasakyan.

Nagmadali ang higanteng monghe na makahabol ng Vespers, kasi ang bilin ko sa kanya, ay kung magagawa niyang makauwi ng before 4PM dahil may stations of the cross that day (Friday, lent kasi nangyari ito). And knowing him na pagong sa kabagalan at kahit nagmamadali ay di pa din naman siya mabilis magpatakbo ng sasakyan, di ba?

I don't know how it happened, pero sumemplang daw ang sasakyan niya dun sa kurbada papasok sa monasteryo after the entrance Monastery sign... iyung kung saan nahulog ang sasakyan ng sister Amelita noon. Kaya nang nag appear ang Digoy sa chapel at ang dungis dungis ng hitsura at namumutla, seconds before we were about to start Vespers nagitla kaming lahat ng mga monghe at kaya pala nag appear para lang magpatsek ng attendance ang kawawang monghe at nag excuse nga to go and ask Fred for assistance.

Early in the morning, pinuntahan ko ang site ng pinangyarihan ng sakuna at grabe nga ang nangyari, a few inches na lang ay sasalpok na ang dala niyang pick-up dun sa malaking kahoy, half of the car - eh yung bandang nguso ay totally out of the way, kung baga ay nahulog na talaga siya dun sa napakalalim na bangin. Pero kasi nag skid at bumaligtad ang sasakyan, kaya siguro dahil sa bigat ng Digoy sa pagkabig ng manibela, kaya hindi ito totally nahulog sa bangin ni kamatayan.

Kuwento sa akin ng Digoy, for 3-5 minutes yata ay di daw siya humihinga at kumkilos at nag antay na lang na lumagpak ang sasakyan kasama siya...and he was hoping na sana daw ay may maglakad at makita siya para matulungan siya makalabas...pero nung na-feel niya na walang dumaraang sasakyan or tao, of kors naman wala nga kasi bundok nga ang kinalalagyan natin at alanganin pang oras, so very slowly ay nag try at nag effort siya na tanggalin ang seat belt niya at gumapang na parang ahas sa bintana para siya makalabas. di kasi siya puwede mag bukas ng pintuan dahil it will create force and weight at totally ay lalagapak at mahuhulog ang sasakyan sa bangin ni kamatayan kasama siya.

Sa awa ng Diyos, dahil monghe nga eh kaya tulong to death ang God the Father sa kanya kaya ayun nakalabas ang Digoy at saka lang daw nanghina ang mga tuhod niya nung nsa lupa na siya. Walang magawa ang Fred and Rosy kahit na dala nila ang truck. Sabi naman ng Roger, tawagan yung tao sa bayan which digoy did the following day. Sabi ng lalaki sa towing car, suwerte ng Digoy dahil any minute ay talagang malalaglag na ang pick up at mabuti na nag effort ang Digoy na makalabas ito bago tuluyang nag fall sa bangin ng death.

But what's more interesting ay yung conclusion ng towing guy nung ni-try daw nila ang pick up, walang sira ang makina nito as in it would normally be expected sa mga ganitong pangyayarina may sira man lang kahit kunti. Nagka-gulo-gulo lang ang mga basura sa loob nito dahil nga sumemplang ito. Kaya on that very moment, ibinalik ang pick-up sa parking lot sa likod ng monasteryo as if everything were fine and normal.

Ni-drive ulit ito ni Digoy from that area where the incident took place at ibinalik ito sa parking lot sa likod. Grabe ang pasalamat ko, kapatid! Alam mo ba na ang lagi kong dasal pag wala dito ang mga matataas na opisyal ng kabahayan natin, - na sana walang matitigok or madedbol na monghe dahil hindi ko talaga alam ang gagawin ko.....eh ang daming naka-line up dito ngayun sa ating kabahayan (si german na Benedict, ang Hermit na Xavier, ang Vietcong na Odon, at ang merkanong Bernard...and malay mo, isa sa mga younger brothers...) Gabi-gabi na lang, pag wala sina Xtian at Tatay, ay iyan lagi ang dasal ko sa vigils at compline na walang matitigok sa isa man sa mga naka-line up na at naghihila ng mga sariling ataul nila.

Anyhow, check mo pa din ulit ang passbook mo at baka andiyan na ang padala sayo. Take courage at focus sa iyong mga desisyon para ma-accomplish mo yang sari-saring problema with Inay. If in this week, wala pa ding sagot ang Tatay sa sulat niya sayo....make another effort to write him and clearly state again your plans.

This time, make sure na malinaw ang lahat ng plano mo - from asking permission to go out for how many years; and the permission to return to the states and find work here; to the arrangement to borrow or loan from the community - how much would be the amount; and all related matters which you can think of.


After you have send your message to Abbot, visualize and think where you would go and how you would go over your plans in relation to find or seek for a teaching post. Sino ang mga puwede mong lapitan for encouragement, support and referrals - your contact persons who can pass on words to you kung saan may bakante at madali kang ma-hire.

The sooner na gawin mo ito, the better para you have time for preparation while waiting the reply of Abbot. Ma-deny man ang request mo or whatever, you should push through with your plans dahil hindi puwedeng naka tunganga ka lang diyan while sunod-sunod ang dating ng mga notice for payments. If you think of California, sino ang malapit mong contact dun (Marcos?, perhaps) na may connection sa school and teaching post.

Kung sa New York naman, who would be that person you think can help you?. I know kung dito naman sa New Mexico, madami kang kakilala at kaibigan na puwede mag bigay ng payo sa iyo in terms of how they were hired and what necessary procedures you will have to do.

Speaking of your close friends here in New Mexico, nadalaw dito sina Amy at Dan, kasama ang kapatid na Carlo at tatlo pang teachers nung Huweves Santo of the Holy Week. Dito sila nag Stations of the Cross. Na-miss ka nila and asked about you, kelan daw ang balik mo. I can only provide with a short and little information.


Okey, hanggang dito na lang muna, kapatid at di pa ako nag bi-breakfast.....basta, if this week ay wala pang sagot ang Tatay sayo sa request mo, make another letter and make sure na malinaw ito...stick to the main point and above all, state clearly why such decision from you must happen and cannot be avoided. Be true to the facts para ma-feel nila ang necessity and urgency sa message mo.


Bye na kapatid...puro plegis na mukha ko dito dahil sa mga problema na di ko naman hinihingi pero ipina-pasa nila lagi sa akin...


love and prayers,


dom Caedmon, OSB

the in thing

Gbex says: The in thing these days are the ones that dictate the most in the marketplace. I am referring to the current trends in healthcare.

Do we have the latest health insurance? Do we need to renew our healthcare program and physical fitness affiliations?

Well, I am just conscious to let you know that the in thing nowadays are the best things that will alleviate us in our present economic crisis and global recession.

surgery blues

Lawrence says: At exactly 10:30AM Phil time, the surgery repair that my mother underwent since 6:00Am this morning was eventually finished.

She was then brought shortly to the recovery room and stayed there until 2:25Pm. At exactly 2:30PM, she was inside her room up the 5th floor. Surgery went well, and the steel bar which the fist doctor who embedded it in her pelvic area was replaced because it was shorter than expected making the leg bone strain with the screws that caused them to slowly and gradually detached where they were supposed to be atached tightly.

Since she was highly morphined, she was experiencing delusions and hallucinations which actually, is normal for someone injected with morphine.

What we discovered was, her hands needed to be touched and held to keep her hands away from the tubes and wires suspended around her ( oxygen, catheter and the IV terminal for the pain medications. ) to make her still.

I asked my nephew, James to hold her hands and touch her forehead to ease her and give her assurance and comfort.

I have taken photos of my mom shortly after she was brought back to her room from the recovery room. I took some photos of her while squrming like a lost worm in the soil and james holding her hands and touching her forehead. What medications cannot do to comfort someone from drug effects, human touch can do so well!

Likewise, I took photos of the steel metal bar and its screws that went off the area where they were supposed to be tightly clasped and attached.

moment of truth

Lawrence says: This is the moment of truth! I am a Catholic monk brother seminarian in Solemn Vows who is outside the monastery right now for a home visit and a long break due to the events of my mother getting surgeries sans the medical treatments beginning January 13th to this date: May 4th.

bedtime stories, surgery repair, loved ones...

Lawrence says: This is a rare chance to post an endearing one as i have never done it before except only now: my mom was with me during these nights when she was bedridden inside the hospital due to a messed-up pelvic bone surgery and during these nights, she was all awake ( no wonder why she could not sleep at nights because the pains were the ones causing her not to ) and so, her mind was all active and reminiscent.

She would tell me stories when i was still a toddler. I learned so much about my roots and my fears and traumas as well.

My mom's hospital confinement gave us, her family and loved ones, a chance to get to gather together, and in some ways, it paved for all of us, not being able to see each other for years to meet up and once again be gathered and reunited physically.

My nephew, Jason, and his wife Joan came all the way from Macau , China, just to visit their grandmom. Their visit gave them a chance to meet me and bond with each other. Jason, when he was a toddler, was mistaken to be my son when i brought him to school in one of our social gatherings. Jason, at 27, still looks like me.

On the serious side, the photos below show how messed the steel bars were in my mom's pelvic bone. This messed-up surgery was undertaken last january 13th and it was only last April 26th, after being rushed to a reputable hospital that we learned of this mess! My mom suffered so much from this dis-aligned steel bar causing her excruciating pains in her leg. Today is her surgery repair which will correct the dis-aligned metal bar in her pelvic area. Say a little prayer for her please!

As of this writing, she is inside the operating room now and the surgery is being currently undertaken and is expected to be done in 4 hours. The repair costs us 80,000.oo Php and that amount does not include the fees from the room and board, medicines administered to her since April 26th, and the doctor's daily rounds and visits.

In my rough estimate, we may be paying an amount of 200,000.00 Php upon her discharge. If you will see the photos up and below, you will see that the screws down (three of them) have been erroneously placed causing so much pain to my mom!

an awesome retreat guide

Lawrence says: Make way for my friend Pam: Read on...

Hello friends,

This April, Gregory Martin and I are launching our website, Still Mountain: a guide to retreats. We would appreciate feedback about the site, or “bugs” in the site that you might encounter as you check us out. We are also asking you to send out the web address to as many friends as possible who would be interested in the site and ask them to do the same (kind of like a chain letter) as a way to promote Still Mountain and gather feedback. We look forward to hearing from you and your responses. Also if you have interest in helping out on a commission basis researching potential retreat centers and workshop presenters please let me know and I can send you details. We are also looking for folks to contribute content including articles you have written or would like to write on various topics related to retreats, as well as blogs and any review info you have on retreat centers or retreat leaders - all would be greatly appreciated.

Peace,
Pam Parsons Dupuy
site address:
http://www.stillmountainretreatguide.com


Pamela Parsons Dupuy, LMFT
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reminiscing the images of a religious brother I knew!

Ellen Says: These images are the ones that I most cherish in my memory with my monkbrother! Quo vadis, domlawrenceosb?

Life's been very great

Ellen Says: This post is a welcome post for our perennial blogfriend and a real-personal friend Lawrence, who has been away for months and now has decided to come back for a visit to his home blog, our blog: reaching out to the world.

Lawrence, for those who still are asking me about his whereabouts, is a long time friend from wayback 1990's when I was still a active academic educator in one exclusive school in the suburbs.

When we parted ways, he went abroad for greener pasture and now he is back for sometime to enjoy the ambience of his native land.

Lawrence and Gbex are my friends and they have contibuted to my growth and development in cyberspace and blogging. To you Lawrence, welcome back my friend!

Gbex says: Ellen is absolutley right! Lawrence has been a very good buddy to me and he introduced me to Ellen in one of my country trips to the Southease Asia.

Lawrence has been a very good friend of mine since we met sometime 2003 in the city streets of Sta Fe, NM during my tour to North America. Since then, we have become good friends and business partners.

It is just but fitting and proper to welcome Lawrence back to the blogosphere!

Hey buddy, I welcome you with a big challenge! keep blogging and be with me and Ellen in our reaching out to the world!

Lawrence says: What shall I say? but thanks to you my perennial friends and blogpartners: Ellen and Gbex!

I wish to stay for good for as long as yoyu are there with me always to welcome me in this very exciting world of blogging!

I hope to stay for good now and be here for you both in your reaching out to the world! Thanks again for the warm welcome!

I AM BACK TO LEAVE YOU AGAIN...

Apa says: HEY FRENDS....i am just too overwhelmed with the latest happenings in my life-- ....

First: I had a very successful closed-retreat ( hey I am Catholic you know!) for seven undisturbed, no-internet access, no cellular phone signals, days at a retreat house which they called "ridgehouse". The experience was just awesome and i had no regrets having joined the "group retreatants".

Second: I had a wonderful experience with a non-stop 6-day snowstorm at the retreat house leaving the whole surroundings completely covered up with a 4-feet snow.

Third: I got my much-needed respite and rest which i just really needed before i embarked on another journey of my life.


HOWEVER....HOWEVER...HOWEVER.

ON THE LAST DAY OF MY RETREAT (Friday night USA time) , I received a very bad text message from my elder sister salome telling me about an accident that happened to our mother.

The message was clear to me: "dinala namin si inay sa St John hospital. nadapa sa sahig, at nabagok ulo sa tiled floor at nahimatay. Sinabi sa akin ni Dr Semanya na nabali ang pelvic bone ni inay dahil sa pagkakadapa kaya kinakailangan na operahin ito". end of text message.

The message gave me so much anxiety- I decided to make an overseas call right then and there to my sister Salome (it was 11Am Phil time then), and luckily get myself connected after a series of repetitive dialing.

I clarified the matter and this was what i got from Salome.
Inay is in a critical condition as the doctor found out that her chest (lungs) had some problems) - i remember it right that in 1990's she got a pulmonary TB and that I had to attend to her medications for 10 long years-.
I really don't know if the P-TB is recurring to her now.

I made a quick decision: I AM GOING BACK HOME ASAP.

I told Salome about my plan. I told my boss in New Mexico this morning through a phone conversation (please let it be known that i am in Pennsylvania right now- a 7-hour flight to New Mexico) about what happened and the need for me to go home ASAP.

Xtian, approved of it so now, i am fixing my flight to Manila. I have just sent my email to Andrei- the manager of a Travel and tours company which is based in Sta Fe New Mexico (it's the travel company that takes care of all flight bookings of the guys who belong to my work-community and etc)to do the necessary flight itinerary for me. The plan is for me to stay for at least 25 days as specified in the company policy for leave and vacations with pay or whatnot, so I am to go back after the 25th day inclusive of my round-trip travel time.
But i really don't know what is gonna happen to such schedule as i still do not know what is gonna transpire with me and with my mother after this accident.

my mother is 96 yrs old and if the doctor advises us to take the risk of a major surgery despite her age and condition, then it is goin to be up to all of us: the children to bear the brunt of what might happen. All is a risk. All is to be accounted within the decision and consensus of my mother's children.

I actually emailed the manager of the travel agency that the earliest i can take up to leave where i am now and to be able to free myself from the responsibilities up here, that includes my packing-up with my luggages, is a Wednesday!

Let me see what the travel agency manager can do for me....

So, friends--that's what i can tell you about the latest in me.....

Just stand by for more updates..

Can i just ask you a favor?

Can you say a little prayer for my mother, who is in a critical condition right now because of the bad fall!--and also: i need your prayers for me so i stay focused despite these eventualities?

Thanks. I certainly would appreciate it.

No photos this time- all of my photos are still in my memory card intact and has not yet been uploaded in my notebook.

Later my friends!

Ellen says: Hey friends, I don't really know what exactly happened to my URL when it was reverted to a blogspot domain but what i knew was that everytime i would open my blog from an outside server without having to log in my gmail account blogger, it would always open a different website rather than my blogsite.

I have been contemplating ang reflecting how to correct this error until the last thought of remedy that I decided to make was to eventually change my URL name. So dear friends, if it is not too much of my asking, would you not mind if i ask you to alter my link in your sites from the one you have in your sidebars to this: http://msellensays.blogspot.com

Please do so, in this way, you'll find me in the net and we may continue to get reconnected. Sometimes, there are matters in the internet which I just could not really fathom and are beyond my limited understanding, so please bear with me!....

Thanks my friends and God bless you all!