i have moved on and God walked me through.

To recap and to really just want to refresh your memory, just for the heck of it yeah, (at least to those who may have found me online and those who have been following me all this time) that I joined the Benedictine Monastery of Christ in the Desert in Abiquiu NM, USA so I became monk in year 2002, took my Simple Vows in year 2003, and then completed my monastic formation in Simple Vows three years later.

I'm back on tracks and is up and running

what matters

Spirituality is about all of these aspects of life: what has touched us, what has formed us, what has made sense to us, what has drawn us, what has repulsed us, what makes no sense to us, etc.

die from old self and live a new life

what is it all about?

Casstiel says: According to the article i found from  wiki, Scientology is a body of beliefs and related practices created by Speculative Fiction author L. Ron Hubbard (1911–1986), starting in 1952, as a successor to his earlier self-help system, Dianetics.

Divine grace

Casstiel blurted out: Divine grace is a theological term present in many religions.

Consecrated life

Casstiel says: Consecrated life, in the canonical sense defined by the Catholic Church, is a stable form of Christian living by those faithful who feel called to follow Jesus Christ in a more exacting way recognized by the Church. It "is characterized by the public profession of the evangelical counsels of poverty, chastity, and obedience, in a stable state of life recognized by the Church".

The Code of Canon Law defines it as "a stable form of living by which the faithful, following Christ more closely under the action of the Holy Spirit,